Saturday, September 20, 2014

72ND. 多出來的那一個,也只能離開

漸漸的,我,好像是真的放了感情進去。一開始的我,就知道我不能陷進去,不斷的提醒自己,要知道自己是什麼身份。但,這,好像沒成功。

錯的時間遇見對的人,相信不管是哪一方,都不會好受。這種事,我遇過兩次。

開始時就給自己set了reminder,不斷提醒自己,時間到後,就得醒來。但,每次都睡過頭;每次都,醒不來。

Set target,永遠都比實行時來的容易。跟自己講的話,還記得很清楚,但,不知道為甚麼,還是陷下去。

我,是從來不吃醋的人,但經過上次的感情創傷後,我似乎,會吃醋了。這一次,雖然說,我已經知道會發生的事時,我,既然吃醋了。

我,到底發生了什麼事?

Reminder沒用了嗎?

為甚麼頭腦會那麼的不聽話?

為甚麼自己的心可以那麼的固執?

我很就沒上來了,但,這個時候,我真的很想發洩,但,沒有聆聽者,那我就只好發洩在這裡。

畢竟,

這裡,也沒有人會上來看。

我,

想祂了!

Friday, October 18, 2013

71ST. 離開以後

近日像每樣話題總不適合你 近日夜深相聚飄起一抹冷漠空氣
在這天 是你事無大小多麼生氣 誰人亦可知你將別離
落寞地躺在睡床試試抱緊你 但是目光躲避 令我可感到你在喘氣
沒說出 亦領會誰在撩動你 拋開苦痛去解脫自己
讓你那些冷卻熱情另有生機 離開我以後我會習慣自卑
明天再偶遇我也不敢偷望你 離開我以後季節冷暖天氣
我也置諸不理 願名字也再不記起
離開我以後我會長留這地 晨早到午夜撲進漆黑想念你
離開我以後醉了會看到你 夢中方可永久地 接近你
伴著但我在預期你會說捨棄 問事實怎躲避在倒數將要每日想你
若這刻 若最後無力留下你 將消失勇氣釋放自己
就算某天我吻別人亦當親你


张學友

Friday, October 4, 2013

70TH. 夜晚

这个夜晚,

我又想她了。

但,

我能做什么呢?

保持平静的心,

度过我的夜晚。

想念,

真的是很讨人厌。

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

69TH. 结束

已经二十四小时没睡了。

行李,进了。

再多一会儿,就会过海关,一切,都会结束了。

一个人的两人世界旅行,就要结束。

回去,

就等待十月的来临。

承诺的十月,

来了,

但,

结果一早就决定了,已失去了意义。

当飞机起飞时,

自我,不会同时起飞。

回去的,只会是,保护色更强的我。

明明答应了家人、朋友,等我回来后,

我就会没事,但,我没告诉他们,其实,他们熟悉的我,已不会回来了。

不会相信爱情,不会相信童话,不会相信永恒,不会相信承诺。

双鱼,是十二星座的最后把关者,也是最后的防线,没有人在他们后面。

双鱼,也有光,与暗。

光的一面,生存不了,

那,

就让暗的一面,来把问题解决吧。

我,带着黑暗回去。

家人,朋友,

对不起了... 

Monday, September 23, 2013

68TH. Sunset

原本,就是要来这里,跟她一起看Sunset。

但,现在,既然是一个人看。

坐在27号彩色屋,看太阳下山,

算是一种安慰吗?

我不知道。

67TH. 变了

来之前,我一直以为我过完这个假期后,我就会没事,就会变回以前的我,但,我真的太高估我自己。感觉上,我迷失得,更多。我自己能感觉到,我的保护意识,更强了,人也变得孤僻。看到的世界,都是灰色。人也变得不爱说话。看来,以前的我,不会再回来了。

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

66TH. 中秋,团圆,没了...

在这里,过中秋,与她团圆,是我原本的计划。

但,

一切,

都没了。

一个普通的星期四,

一个人的团圆,

真的很冷淡。

希望,

她,会过得比我更好。

朋友们,

祝你们,

中秋节快乐,

团圆,快乐。


Monday, September 16, 2013

65TH. 一个人的旅行,真的很孤独。

到了墨尔本。

这里的天气,我很喜欢。

一整天的都不会流汗的感觉,

真的是很好。

也只有,

这个好罢了。

其他的,

都不好。

耶稣,

你听见吗?


Friday, September 13, 2013

64TH. 诺有缘,有缘就能期待,明天

刚刚,跟一班旧同事去吃饭。

去了,其中,让我跟她,回忆最深刻的地方。

有说,有笑,但,又有谁能察觉,我的伤心呢?

手里的烟,慢慢的燃烧。

看着圣陶沙的夜景,决定,去唱K。

到了K房,点了一首,又一首的歌。

也不知道,我哪里拿来的勇气,点了那一首,“我不愿让你一个人”。

每句歌词,熟悉的旋律,一刀,又一刀的割下来,很痛,很痛。

但眼泪,没流出来。

我想,应该是眼泪,都干了吧。

最后一首,“请歌王”,里面有一句:

“诺有缘,有缘就能期待,明天...

你和我,重逢在灿烂的季节”

十二点半了,

最后,

剩下的,

也只是,

我一个人。

Thursday, September 12, 2013

63RD. The Fallen Angel

再次的,我,回到来了这里。

有人说过,当你最无助的时候,家,就是你的避风港。

我,回到了,我的家。回到了,我自己的世界。

经历过人生的起起落落,我的人生,又再次的,回到了原点。或许,这个原点,已不再是当初的原点了。

现在的我,只能用,跌到谷底,来形容。每天就好像行尸走肉似的,完全没有目标。

这,就是我的人生吗?

我,问了自己很多次,反复的在思考,天使,抛弃我了吗?

一直都是无神论的我,也开始相信了天堂,人间,与地狱的存在。

为什么?

因为,

曾经,有位天使,带了我,去到了人生最美好的天堂。

天堂,当然,那里的一切,都是美好的。

黄连有多苦,我不知道,但,人们都说,“哑巴吃黄连,有苦说不出”,所以,我相信,黄连,应该是很苦很苦。曾经,我坚信,我的痛苦,一定是比黄连还要苦上千百倍,但到了那里,我所谓的痛苦,也比黄连,来得甜一些。毕竟,天使,会跟你分担,替你加油,帮你打气。

这,就是天堂的美。

不过,如果没了天使的天堂,人们的痛苦,还会比黄连甜吗?

答案很明确,不会!

当我人生跌到谷底时,我一直认为,这已经是最底了,已经没得再底了,现在的我,发觉,原来我错了。

曾经,我的人生也跌到了谷底,但没比这个深。当时,我遇见了一位天使。她是我见过,最美的天使。

她的天真,让我开怀大笑。

她的可爱,让我无法自拔。

她的魅力,让我相信,童话故事,现实中,还是会有的。

但,

不是每个童话故事,都有美好的结局。

天使,离开了。

今天,我做了一个决定,我把我的面子书,Instagram,以及其他的社交网络,都给删除了。

为什么?

因为,

这些已经不重要的,已经没有意义了。

我,又回到来了谷底。不,是去了更底的谷底,简直,就像来到了地狱。

我,

能爬得上人间吗?

我,

还有机会见到她吗?

我,

很想她。

Saturday, September 1, 2012

62ND What the...

I don't know what had just happen, but i visited my own blog, after so long, and noticed my chatbox is full of nonsense msgs from all the advertising company. What's wrong with you guys? Why you wanna spam a blog which never update for so long?

Anyway, I am bored. I am in Subang and I am bored. What can DO???

I posted photo to Instagram, posted a MTV which i like to facebook, and even log in to my Company outlook.

I am BORED!!!

I can't believe this is a post.

Friday, June 25, 2010

61ST. Relationship

Good morning everyone, although now is already 1.42pm. Haha… I had been sleeping till very late recently…

Yup, this is a total image change for my blog, and it is represented another journey is going to start in my life, a brand new story… But today I am not going to talk about myself or my career. I am going to talk about, relationship.

Yea, the relationship that I meant was love relationship. Who can define relationship? I think different people will have different thinking and also different way to handle their relationship. Some may think that as long as I treat him or her nicely, that’s will mean I love him/her. Some may think that I prepare everything he/she needs for her, and make it as a surprise, this will be very sweet. And the other some, may think that I need to give him/her space, in order for them to breathe, and sometimes, care about her, be there when he/she needs me. Which types of person are you? And do you know that., sometimes, the surprise that you think is SWEET, can turn out to be WHAT THE……

I have a lot of girl friends. Some already has boyfriend. But all their thinking are totally different as compare to one another. Some want to stick with her boyfriend 24-7, some want some personal space. Ask yourself or your girlfriend, which type are they? This make a big different and the outcome can be very bad if you are not aware about it. Sometimes, you feel like spend time together with your girlfriend by going to her friend’s birthday party together. But have you ever thought that, maybe she doesn’t want you to go?

In a relationship, both parties thinking are very important elements. Sit down; take 5 or 10 minutes to discuss with your love, what is their thinking. I can tell you, if you don’t take it seriously, you will regret. Don’t think that you are pro in relationship. Everyone is still learning…

Here, I will end this topic by wishing you, and your love, will have a nice, memorable journey, till the end of your life. Ciao…

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

60TH. 期待

很累...
很累...
刚刚在facebook看到了一位陌生女生的部落格,
才想起,
我,
好像,
好久好久没有用华语来写部落格了...
2009年,
就要结束了...
感觉,
时间过得,
很快,
很快...
我,快要23岁了...
我,快要毕业了...
我,快要结婚了...
酱就没有啦...
嘻嘻...
身边的朋友,
都一一毕业了...
跟我同期的好友,
也有几个毕业了...
我,
感觉上,
慢了他们好几步...
要怪,
就怪accounting是四年...
再加一年的foundation,
我在大学,
已快五年了...
第一年,Alpha Foundation,整天只顾着玩...
第二年,Beta Accounting,开始认真了,加入了学校社团,但感情路上,却一塌糊涂...
第三年,Gama Accounting,成绩有上有下,我也不理不睬,同时也造成社团成风云...
第四年,Delta Accounting,退出社团,专注学业,但也不求不了...
第五年,Epsilon Accounting,training完了,现在等开学...
说实话,
还蛮期待的...

Thursday, December 10, 2009

59TH. Sorry for the De-De-De-Delay...

After so long, finally I have the mood to update my blardy blog… I think there are a lot of spider web in my blog…

I had finished my internship last month, and guess what, I kinda miss my own department actually. I miss my cute secretaries Lilian and Kak Zanah, I miss my colleagues and seniors. I like the working environment there as well. Some said that our department is the worst department of all, but I felt that, it is the best department for me. I had a lot of fun and learned a lot from that department.

6 months. I still felt that it was yesterday that all of us start our training and go to work happily. Some work late, some OT till very late, some go outstation job, had dinner together, go yumcha together, breakfast and dimsum together. Haiz… I think I will miss those days. Apart from that, I think I will miss PJ’s lifestyle. Not that crowded like KL, and not that boring like Melaka. Now I understand why Brenda will always tell me that she very boring in Melaka. In Melaka, I always go out with the same group and my best friend. Now, my best friend is fighting hard for his interest and career in pub, which mean that he cannot hang out with me at night, unless, I go to the pub and find him.

Until next Monday, I will be busy enough for the party plan and final report. But after next Monday, I seriously don have a shit idea what I suppose to do. MMU student is having their study week and all is rushing for assignment and FYP. After assignment and FYP, they will be busying study for their final exam. Gosh, what am I suppose to do? Go to travel? Where? Who is going supply me money?

Anyway, don care la… Wait till next Monday only thinks la… Worst come to worst go find a part time job.

Ok, I think I should stop now.

Oh ya, Happy Belated Birthday for Ng Yie Lin (23.11.2009) and Janet Tan Wan Ying (01.12.2009). Will give your both your present later ya, haven’t got the time to buy yet. Find one day go to have meeting ya… Hehe…

Okie, good night everyone…

Sunday, September 6, 2009

58TH. De.Clubbers!


I love rain, but not till spoiled my date. Supposed to have a date with Desiree but cancelled due to heavy rain. Yesterday slept kinda late, same schedule, went to club yesterday. Before that, me and my uni friends went to watch ‘Murderer’ from Aaron Kwok. Aaron Kwok’s acting was kinda impress, he made the whole movie looked creepy.

After that movie, I had been ask myself, what if I come across with this kind of situation as in the movie? What if I am on the peak of my career and someone destroy my life? Will I choose to kill? Maybe…

Going back to PJ later. Really feel like staying in Melaka for another day.

Sleepy now…

To be continue……

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

57TH. Nights before my BIG plan...

I had plan this quite some time, just need to wait the right time. I have something to prepare and once i finished that, i will shock the world... Wahahahaha...
(=_=!!!)

Ok la, not the world la, maybe those who know me la... What is it about? I don't plan to tell, for now.

This plan can only be perfect when everything goes smoothly and according to my plan. However, my plan is kinda hard to run... How ah? I also no idea... Anyway, just like what they alway say, 'If there is a desire, there is a road.' (What English is that? Now only i realize, my English very POWDERFUL. Haha... Actually it's translate directly from Malay, "Di mana ada kemahuan, di situ ada jalan", but you know la, Malaysia road where can pakai one? Everytime jam, and alot of HOLESSSSSS, so i have to plan properly).

That's all i can say for my plan.

To be continue...

Haha... Show you guys one interesting photo... Hehe...

Saturday, August 22, 2009

56TH Roommate and Housemates.

I had been to PJ for quite some times d, and I don’t have the chance to blog about my roommate and housemate that I hang out EVERYDAY, ok, maybe not every day, but ALMOST every day (5 days a week). Blog about them maybe is a very good idea… Hehe… They will get a shock… Hehe… Ok, let me introduce my roommate first…

His name is Ken, we used to be in the same secondary school. He is a ‘banana’, don know how to speak Mandarin, even worst in Cantonese. Currently he works as intern in Deloitte. He is not very tall, not very short, my height. Hehe… Or… Maybe a bit… higher than me. He is very good looking, but girl, so sorry, he is taken. Haha… And who is the lucky girl, scroll down and see. Haha…
She, is my housemate, Ang Ai Jen. She is the lucky girl that I was talking about. She is one of the ‘blur’ friends. It is very easy to bluff her, when you tell her something which is not true, she will take 120% and start to say ‘Har….. Really ah?’. And when you tell her the true that you bluff her, she will tell you this: ‘Eat shit and die’. Oh ya, her favorite term is ‘eat shit’.
She is Rachel Oh Yen Ming, sometimes we like to call her Rachel Oh Yeah~ When you stay together with her, you need to have a very good time planning and a very fast bathing skill. It is because she will take nearly ONE HOUR in the bathroom every morning before work. Very geng rite? Haha… And she is the best trainee in KPMG department P. This is because she every time also work til very late. Her record was reach home at 3AM and work on Saturday. Currently she is single, but I don’t know will she be still single after November. Reason? Haha… Cause we suspected one of my brother named Yusan is going after her.

Jackie Tan Hui Khee, another housemate of mine. She is working as intern as well in one of the company in HP tower. She is from Ipoh, and beside me, she is the only Chinese educated in our house. Undeniable, she likes to clubbing. She likes all the clubbing songs, especially from Pitbull. I like to mess up all her place, not on purpose and she likes to scold me always. When my another friend Yee Seen comes to my house, the only thing that she and Yee Seen know is clubbing…

And this is me, Ee Wui Chien, a.k.a Siying. I am just an ordinary guy that likes to read comic and daydreaming. I might look fierce or cool most of the time, but I can tell you I am very friendly. That’s all my blogging today. Oh ya, forget to blog one thing. My little Coldy just got his IC few days ago. Look at his photo with the IC. Damn cute rite? Haha… Ok, it’s time… Bonne nuit.

Sunday, August 2, 2009

55TH. Laundry (1/8/2009)

Recently i have no time to update my blog. It is because i don't have internet connection here in PJ. But yesterday we have fun in Laundry, and i want to share our photos with you guys...

Girls in my house... Jackie, Amy, Rachel, and Yee Seen the Kepo Kacang...

The, Mal the stupid came to find us, before her movie at 2AM. Three of them came from Kluang. Kluangwomen... Haha...

Amy and Jackie, they wanted to take a photo of two of them ONLY, but Yee Seen the Kepo come to kepo-kepo...

He is Razin, Mal's boyfriend. We have this cool photo that can make Mal jealous. Wakaka... Mal, Razin don't love you anymore... Wahaha...

Then, Mal got jealous. She also want to have one... BUT, as usual, Yee Seen the Kepo come to kacau...

The Girls...

The Girls... (-_-!!!)

Jackie, with the huge huge Long Island Tea...

Four of them were dancing. Hey wait, where is Rachel?

Ar hah, all of them, but this photo not that clear. But definately not the cameraman's fault. Want to know why?
It is because i was the Cameraman. Hehe... With Jackie... Hehe....
And Shaun, hope you don't jealous when you see this. Wahaha...

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

54TH. Ellllloooooo...

Helllllo, guys and girls, how are you. Fuhhh… Finally I have one post since I start my internship in PJ. There is no internet connection ate my house there, so I cant online always. I can online in the office, but, impossible I want to update my blog in the office right? Those senior will scold me upside down for sure.

It had been one months plus, I guess I already settle down with my life here in PJ. Nothing change, just that I need to wash cloths, sleep without air-con (it is killing me, but I’m still survive.), always eat outside the house (no one can cook. I can but lazy. Haha…), wake up at 7am every weekdays, grow fat, and cannot online all the time.

Basically, the internship life in KPMG PJ, is fun, in some part la. Cause I get to learn a lot of stuff. But I am not going to explain further. Haha… Let’s talk something interesting.

Girls, I am in PJ, not Melaka. What is happening there in Melaka now? Who can update me? I want update update.

I want to know who is the new ‘fly’ that dates Desiree.
I want to know is Shaun, my bro, still alive or not.
I want to know has Coldy learn how to talk already or not.
I want to know has Yielin plan to marry already or not.
I want to know how Janet is doing now.
I want to know what is happening in Melaka now.
And finally, I want to know Pure still open or not.

Haha… I think there will be a lot of answers as well as also respond, and I think somebody, I don know who, but someone, is going to scold me. Haha… Well, I really miss you guys… This time,definitely, for sure, confirm, hundreeeeed percent, ‘Yat Bak Ba Sin’, I am going back to Melaka on this Friday. Haha…

Ok, that’s all for today. Bye guys and girls. Miss you all and make sure you all miss me ya.

p.s: For those who don’t know, actually Coldy is my dog. Hehe…

Thursday, May 28, 2009

53RD. KPMG, here i come...

Yesterday was my last day of exam… And finally, I am going up to PJ to have my internship. Yeah~ Can’t wait.

I still can remember the feeling when I hand up my answer book yesterday, it was like………….. I find no word to describe it… Cause it was too wonderful… Haha… However, I already know that the Advance Taxation I will fail for sure. And I already prepare myself and my feeling to take the supplementary paper. Haha… Another one could be Securities Investment, that one I also not very sure about the answer. Haiz… Whatever it is, it’s already over. Now, I just have to pack my stuff, pack my feeling and pack myself, go to my new house in PJ and start training on Monday.

Starting from yesterday, my phone is giving me headache. My phonebook gone due to the data corrupted. What is it? I also don’t know what the hell it is… This is giving me another reason to change phone… Blackberry storm, perhaps… But, hope my phone will stay guai guai till I change a new phone.

Now everything is ok, but I am still worrying about two things.

One, I don’t have a GPS, I am very bad in direction. I am still figuring out Melaka road but now I have to start to learn PJ road. I want to faint d… Haiz… Another funny thing is, I know how to go to my office, my new house from Melaka. But, I have no idea how to come back Melaka from there… This is why I said I need a GPS. However, as my friend said, as long as you have money, phone, and car, I worry to nothing. Ok, at least he is right.

Two, I am so excited for my internship. I don’t know what I should do, but I am just excited. Haha… Hopefully I can learn a lot of thing there and get well with my colleagues. And hopefully won’t get bullied by them. I think won’t gua… I am not that ‘Shue Heng’ rite? (-_-!!!)

I think I will definitely miss Melaka, miss my brothers, my family, my friends, my pig, and my dog, Coldy. Oh ya, last week I found this photo in my sister’s file, Coldy’s photo. And I find it very adorable. So just want to share with you all… He is my dog, named Coldy.


Name : Coldy Ee
Age : Less than 1 year
Gender : Male
Type : Maltese
Hobby : Bite my finger, run everywhere, sit car, enjoying air-con, roll over my bed, and EAT…

Cute rite? Hehe...

Okie la, today I blog till here la… Bye bye…

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

52ND. Nuffnang Xchange... I like it!!!


Attention bloggers, especially nuffnangers, now Nuffnang has launch a new widget to our blog… It is a widget which will appear at the bottom-right of your blog with quick links to the latest blog posts, Innit chatter, and a free writing space. At first, I also wondering what is that, then I give a try in my blog. The widget appears and it will stay at the bottom-right of blog no matter where I scroll. It makes my blog looked cool and looked very advance. Haha… Currently this nuffnang xchange only have two themes, one is compact and another is flower. Flower theme xchange is too girlish for me, so I took the compact theme. Hope they will create more different theme, so that it can match perfectly with the blog’s style. So, what are you waiting for, especially nuffnangers? Go and grab one for your blog…

Monday, May 4, 2009

51ST. Whatever it is...

Not continue from last post, this post will be a brand new post, which I have no idea what I am going to talk about. Well… Anything la… Just blogging, while I am waiting…
I felt very sleepy today, especially now… In the evening, I was trying to take a short nap, but because of the weather and my dog, I couldn’t sleep well. Recently I believe most of us experienced the mighty power of the sun. Why is it so hot in Melaka? This is why I will never like sunny day… I love raining day, because it won’t make me sweat and it made me feel windy… I rather cool until die than hot until die.

Just now at night, I never go out. Not that I don’t want to go out, it was because I have no place to go… I don’t feel like going Jonker, don’t feel like drinking beer, don’t feel like watching movie, and don’t feel like going to café. What’s wrong with me? Most of my friends are rushing their final year project. Some of them are at the stage of completing; some of them need the blessing from the God. Luckily accounting student does not need to do final year project.

Wait, I got the feeling that I start to emo now. But why? Why am I emo? Maybe it is due to not enough sleep la. Hey wait, since when I will emo because of this reason? My brain is blank, is as clean as a paper, does not have any note of word, because I can’t think of any. It is considered good cause I am still be able to write a post when my mind had already stop functioning, for current moment.

Oh my god, this is a damn boring post. Whatever, the next one will be a interesting one… I promise…

Sunday, April 26, 2009

50TH. Sweet~

Got a lot of complain, saying that I never update my blog… Where got, recently I got update what… My last post was at………….. Not important… Don’t know why I feel like writing out what my friend complained about my blog. I know some of you all are not interested but just go through la. Some complain I always wrote in Mandarin and they can’t read; some said why always talk about assignment, very boring; some said I took very long to update, a lot of spider web; some said they had a bad mood, so visit my blog, manatau never update, lagi ‘pek cek’… For those who don’t understand what is ‘pek cek’, its mean headache… Now, I will write more English post, not about assignments, not boring, and entertaining… Wow, what a difficult task… But I will try… This blog is going to be what I had gone through last week.

First, Monday, nothing special happened. Attended my friend’s seminar. That’s all… Oh my god, this is going to be a boring post… Forget about it. To the main point straight. Haha… (-_-!!!)

This Friday, I went up to Kuala Lumpur with Ken, to find houses for our industrial training. We had got several contacts, thanks to Ai Jen’s mummy. We took approximately 3 hours to get to Bandar Sunway. Okie, if you are laughing, just please stop it. The reason why we took that long is me and Ken don know KL or Seremban’s road at all. And we don’t have GPS. One of my dear friends, she so call herself a walking GPS for me, gave a not very accurate direction. Haha… Don’t scold me, you memang not a good GPS. Haha… No la, actually we miss a small sign board to USJ. Then, we stop at a side, and call for help. We called, 5 people, and all of them gave us different answer. There were one or two persons said the same thing la. But luckily, we manage to reach Bandar Sunway, safely. We fetched my walking GPS and go down to Damansara. Oh ya, we actually planned to go Damansara, not Bandar Sunway. We went to Sunway just to fetch my friend only.

Driving is very exhausting, can’t really deny that. We reach One Utama at 12 something, and we had a delicious lunch, in Chili’s. Thanks to Rebekah. We couldn’t finish our food, not that it’s not nice, just that the portion was too big. It’s looked small in the menu you see. (-_-!!!)
We had a walk in One Utama, but we didn’t shop. Rebekah manages to buy something in Forever 21, but she blamed me. She said because of me, she has to waste money. Pengsan~
Time is up, we went to see one units at Jasmine Tower and three units at Pelangi Utama. Some was not suitable, some was ok but too expensive. However, we manage to find one which is cheap, and nice, although got a bit far from our walking place, but cheap. If you find houses through agents, you have to rent at least one year, but this one was not go through agents, so we manage to rent for 6 months if we want. Oh ya, forget to mention, the place is at Pelangi Damansara. It was a very tiring day. But worth it. And seriously I have to get a GPS phone when I am up for training…

Yestarday, I went to a Prom , organized by one of the society in MMU. Not that I like to condemn the Prom, but the food really suck… Too little to be choose. The program was ok, nothing much to complain, just the food, that’s all. No offence, it make me feel that the amount of money that I paid, not worth it. After that, we went to Pure. Freaking a lot of people there… Luckily I and Shaun manage to get a small little space at the bar counter there. I got a bit ‘high’ yesterday. Want some more? Haha…

To be continue… Wakaka…

Thursday, April 16, 2009

49TH. Go die!!!

This few weeks, I had been busy for a lot of thing… Assignment, event, assignment, assignment, and assignment. Why there are so many assignments in MMU? And most of the lecturer, use us as his/her slave, to help them in their research. For me, it is nothing wrong with it, but it is just got too over. Some lecturers are just too particular into some shit… Yea, of course, there are some who don’t even care you got do or not… But today I not going to talk about assignment again, cause reader will get bored if I keep on writing about assignment. I am going to blog about ‘Leader with bullshit leadership’.

A leader, according to Ee Wui Chien Dictionary, a leader is the one who lead the group or team members to a goal. Mark my word, I use ‘lead’. But there are some idiot leaders who ‘order’ his/her group members to do the entire job, and he/she do nothing, play facebook maybe… I hate this kind of leader, in fact, I would not admit this kind of person as my leader, no way… Not necessarily a person have to be a good leader, just don’t become a bad or worst leader is sufficient enough for me. A leader do not necessarily must have a special ability or skill, but he/she must know how to put him/herself in the team member’s shoe.

Don’t be misunderstood, I am not referring to any one of my leaders, all my leaders are good leader, lucky me. I write this because I felt pity for one of my friend to have such a leader. However, he/she is a tough person who able to finish all the tasks by him/her own. Just wish that he/she won’t get this kind of leader again in the future… To judge a person whether he/she is a good leader or not, what you need to do is, see how many people support him/her. This is the most accurate method that I know up to this moment.

A good leader must walk forward/backward together with the team, not push the team goes forward and you hide at the back.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

48TH. Not a very good post...

Recently, many things happen around me… Some are good, some are bad… And of course, some I don’t know is it good or bad… But mostly are bad actually. Especially midterm exam… At first, I don’t like the lecturer, now, I actually hate him. Before this he did mention in the class and bulletin that the duration for midterm is 2 hours and 30 minutes. But on that day itself, he only give us 1 hour and 30 minutes. I went in late, so when he announced that the duration was only 1 hour and 30 minutes, i never heard that. It was my mistake as well for go in late and never read the instruction before I do the test. But how many lecturers in University will do that? I seriously don’t know what he was doing. I mean, the purpose we asked the lecturer about the duration of the test is we want to be prepared. But that idiot give us a wrong time duration just for fun, mean that he is one of the idiot who has PhD in this world. Another lecturer also the same. 2 days before, upload a tutorial and that question have to be done by using a different formula. Ok, I can accept that, cause not much to memorize. There was only one example that we can refer, which was our tutorial. So we redo again and again jus to practice. We use a key point figures to get all the answer. It pretty straight forward for me, at first. When come to the exam, she never gives us the key point, and without the actual key point, we will not be able to do all the questions cause it is inter related. And the marks for calculation is 60% in total. Even you score full in your theory, which mean 40%, but you can’t find the key point, you will still failed.

Enough for education field, now go to others.

There is some cases happen in my group of friends. Some is personal, and some included other party. I don’t know what to say, what to tell and what to advice. I will pray hard for you all, and hope that everything will go exactly as you guys wish. That’s all I can do. Sorry to say that I can only do those much, because I don’t know whether the thing that I do, will come to the wrong effect or not. So, I just pray hard for your guys.

Today, before I went out from my house, my mom tell me that one of my relative pass away. I know who is he, but I can’t really recognize his face, cause I always confuse him and his brother. Oh ya, he is my mom’s father, mean my grandfather, punya adik. Rest in peace, that’s all I can say.

Few days ago, I watched the movie KNOWING. It is a very nice movie, and I love it very much. But the story tells me that all the thing which could happen, already set by someone. Even if you have the ability to foresee the future, you still can do nothing because the All Mighty already put it in his master plan. So, I realize that, human is useless actually. But not until very useless la of course. What am I saying? I have no idea also… Just don’t ask me…

Bye and have a nice day, at least nicer than mine…

"Nothing is permanent in this wicked world. Not even our troubles."

Monday, March 23, 2009

47TH. 星期五的爱情

傻傻的,
纯纯的,
你让我再次觉得恋爱了…
好听的,
甜美的,
你的歌声已让我陶醉了…
文静的,
害羞的,
你的笑容把我给融化了…
很想对你说"嗨",
但怕你会说"BYE",
坐在台下的我,
看着台上的你…
距离很近,
却似很远…
不知道有没有这个缘分,
不晓的有没有这个荣幸,
在长桌另一边的我,
与躲在蜡烛后的你,
一起共度美好晚餐…

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

46TH. Die terkangkang in the coffin...

Today was my first midterm exam, and it was Advanced Taxation. I did mention in my blog that Taxation 1 is tough, Taxation 2 was killing me, and this time is Advanced Taxation, so you can imagine la, I die terkangkang in the coffin.

Maybe is because I hug the Buddha’s leg last minutes lo, but I still don’t get it, last time when I study last minute also can score, now, study many time also can’t score, especially calculation question. Last time I use to like calculation question, cause I found it kinda easy for me, but now, I prefer writing question. The reason is because I can crap at least if I don’t know how to do, but calculation, even thought I know the formula, I still cannot do, cause I don’t get the true concept.

Tommorow I have 2 papers, one is calculation paper in the morning, and the other one is theoretical question at night. Today one paper I die terkangkang, tomorrow 2 papers, I think I will die terbalik…Help me if you can… SOS

Sunday, March 15, 2009

45TH. Coldy, my cute puppy...

His name, is Coldy

Coldy in the cage.

He is Coldy's father, the Champion dog...

Yesterday, just yesterday, we got Coldy in our house. We ask my cousin's boyfriend help us to get Coldy. I never really ask my mom where Coldy from, but it is doesn't matter... Cause he si so cute... Hehe... He is very small still, 2 months old, has a very very very small size body... He like to walk by using only THREE legs... Yes, is three leg, not joking... He kinda like rabbit, especially when he run... He use his back legs to jump like a rabbit when he is running... Another thing, he like to bite me, especially my fingers... Well... Hope my family will like him... He is soooooooooooo CUTE...

Friday, March 13, 2009

44TH. Poor Coconuts...

Still remember that day i wrote something about go to see Indian God? Here are all the pictures that i took. My father said the Indian God statue is made from PURE GOLD... The Indian God went from Krubong to Gajah Berang... When they arrive at the place that i wait, people there start praying... After pray, they will start smashing the coconuts... And one thing, although HE/SHE is an Indian God, a lot of Chinese people went to pray as well... The one who smash the coconuts at our waiting place there, was chinese... This was my first time to see people smash coconuts... Next time i want to try... Hehe...
The Indian God Arrives...

Cant really get a clear picture...

They were smashing the coconut, to chase the bad luck out of their body...

They throw damn alot...

The Indian God, two cows pulling the car...

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

43RD. Maybe, I believe...

Just now, before I went out to have dinner with my parent, I got the feeling that I will be emo tonight… I don’t know why, but I just have that feeling… May be is my sixth sense… After dinner, we went to see the Indian God… Took us 2 hours just to see the Indian God. However, felt worth it also cause get to see how they throw the coconut to chase the bad luck out… When I reached home, I start emo d. Yes, I emo because I saw something… Then I can feel the pain of my heart, however, it wasn’t as pain as last time, although it was hurt. Thanks to the funny couple, I stop emo straight. I don’t know why I felt this way, but this is what I wish for, since last 2 years.

Maybe, or just may be, we live in the different world;
Maybe, or just may be, we have different paths in life;
Maybe, or just may be, we will never be the same.
I believe, we will meet each other one day, from different paths;
I believe, we will meet each other one day, with different partners;
I believe, we will meet each other one day, with different feeling.

Maybe, or just maybe, we will meet each other one day… I believe…

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

42ND. 人生

不是做了很久的人,但过去的21年里,在我的人生,经历过了,我自认已是有起有落,甜酸苦辣样样齐。过去的自己,从不会珍惜任何人、事、物。一直都是喜新厌旧,自信高傲的人。当时,应该有很多人看我不顺眼,就像我朋友用来形容我的词,一字‘拽’。现在,后悔了,开始懂得珍惜眼前的人、事、物。不在喜新厌旧,反而有点怀念旧的事物;自信也不再的高傲,但也不至于没有自信的那一种。

了解我的朋友,可能知道,也可能不知道我的一个偏见,那就是我第一眼看到的人,如果我觉得不顺眼,我就不会喜欢他,从不会改变我的想法。感觉有点以貌取人。没办法,年轻时不懂事。现在呢,我也没变得伟大。有些人,如果我第一次看不顺眼的,可能,会变得顺眼都不一定。要怎样解释,我也不是很会,感觉就是很抽象,很…抽象。当然,但中有几个还是处在不顺眼的区域里,从来没变过。想一想,我真的是很怪。

以前自认是个玩家,自认拥有一定程度的魅力,能将女人玩弄自如;现在收山当和尚吃斋,要好的女性朋友也便多了,做什么事,都会站在女人的角度想,反而弄到自己都有点讨厌男人。先声明,不是全世界的男人都是一样的,当然还有一部分的好男人,如果博物馆还有把他们的尸体给展示出来的话。那也好,至少我不会变成同性恋。再次声明,我没有歧视同性恋。

现在,我的生活还算过得出,不算很精彩,也不算很无聊。从前的复杂生活,到现在的悠哉游哉,及未来的写意人生。咳,要到22岁了。感觉,好像有点老了。没办法,人就是要长大。

Daddy,mummy,及老妹,谢谢你们一路以来的照顾、体谅及关心… 我爱你们,也希望你们对我的爱,会持续下去。

朋友及姐妹们,谢谢你们一路来的啤酒、红酒、vodka及威士忌… 我也很爱你们,也希望你们不要一直把我给灌醉。我的肚子很大个了,我不想变得跟圣诞老人一样。还有,谢谢你们一路来的陪伴,听我诉苦,听我唠叨。谢谢。放心,我还会继续的。哈哈…

严重性的自言自语…

无药可救…

Friday, February 20, 2009

41ST. Twenty-twenty


Today is 20th of February. Today is her birthday… From today onward, she will be 20 years old… But I guess this year birthday is not a good birthday for her… I don’t know what to say, I don’t know what to advice, and I don’t know what to do. Last week when we were talking on the phone, I ask her, how is she going to celebrate her birthday, then she answer me ‘never celebrate, stay at home’. Then I replied said if she really stays at home, I will give her a call and accompany her in chatting. Today is the day, and yet, I never call her. Not that I don’t dare, it’s just that something happened and I think it is a bad time to give her a call. I send my wishes in text to her anyway.



Recently, I am very moody, and start to be a little bit emo. It has been awhile since the last time I was emo-ing. Yesterday I went out alone. When I drove home, I felt that it took me longer time than usual to get home. By the time within, my mind came across a lot of pictures, just like a flash slice show. What can I say? I miss my past, but I desire of my future. Last time, I used to have a mind picture on what I have and who I am in my mind, but now, some pieces of puzzle are missing and I still searching for it. Not in the way that searching the old one, but looking for the new one as well… I know it sound confusing, even me myself also don’t know what I am writing now. Just, forget about it…



Sometimes, I do like February, but sometimes, I do hate February. Cause every time when it’s come to February, I will be emo all the times. Anyway, Rebekah, Happy 20th birthday… May all your dreams and wishes come true…

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

40TH. 绮

Saturday, February 7, 2009

39TH. 丘比特的遗羽


冷风阵阵…夜晚的风,感觉上,比平时的,还要冷许多许多。是春风还没结束,还是连月老都在叹气?近来,身边的朋友,都在接受着爱情的折磨。爱情,可以让人失去理智;爱情,可以让人无理取闹;爱情,可以让人迷失自我;爱情,可以让人出卖灵魂。主宰爱情的月老,不能把人间的爱情给配得十全十美,毫无缺陷,因为人,就是矛盾与混乱的混合体。“人”字,本身就是一个缺陷美。“人”字,从上到下,就是一个固定的点,到分叉,也就是说,当人的年龄越来越大时,人,就会变得,越来越不完美。

想着想着,我也好久没有写有关于‘爱情’的部落了。距离最上一次写有关爱情的部落,已是去年之事。当看到了身边朋友的事情后,我很有感触的要写张关于爱情的部落,但我的脑袋变得一片空白,根本没有任何概念要如何写。或许,就像我那般姐妹所说的,我空窗太久,吃斋太久了,遗忘了爱情是什么感觉了。虽然如此,我并不渴望爱情。因为我并不想为了爱情而去追踪爱情,同时,我也不想随随便便去找个女人来拍拖。

昨晚,我看到了我两位好友在哭泣。他们的事,我知道的不少,也知道的不多,尤其是昨晚他们之间发生了什么事,我毫无头绪。但我能做什么?我只能用一些很敷衍的安慰,来安慰他们。不是因为我不care他们,是因为我不知要怎样安慰他们。

平时,无时无刻都在嘻嘻哈哈讲冷笑话的他,昨晚,变得悲伤、堕落;

平时,从头到尾都在蹦蹦跳跳放声大笑的她,昨晚,变得痛苦、忧愁。

还有另一个她,她昨晚也… …

朋友们,我不知该怎样帮你们,怎么安慰你们,但如果你们需要我的帮忙时,请出声,知道吗?
但愿爱神丘比特,能给你们,我们,带来幸福…

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

38TH. A Life...

A meaningfull nice picture...

Yesterday, just before I went to bed, I had some idea on what to blog…. But… when I tried to recall today, I get nothing… I remember it is a pretty interesting topic that I going to blog, but so sad I had forget it. Haiz… Well, think that I have to start a new topic then…

Today is the second day of my campus life (after holiday). Yesterday were Advance Management Accounting and Accounting Theory. Any comment? Yea, I lot from me… First, Advance Management Accounting. I had been thru Management Accounting 1 and 2, about 80% of the subject was calculation, but from the lecturer that the admin assigned to us, it seem like this subject is more toward to writing than calculating… Seriously, I have no idea what grade I will get for this subject. And, hopefully there will not have any presentation for this subject, because the lecturer gave a pretty low mark for the presenter, although he gave ‘excellent’ as his comment. Accounting Theory, can’t deny that the lecturer is a pretty flexible lecturer, as in he can change everything… Just like he said, “everything is based on your own argument.” And what I heard was, his tips also very flexible. He can tell you these, but in the exam come out that… Hopefully he won’t con us this time…

Just now 10-12 noon, I had attended Advance Taxation, my lecturer is no body but dearest Madam Lim… The very first word that caught my attention was, “then I think the Delta student shouldn’t take this subject now. You better think properly on continue or drop this subject.” The reason why she asks us to drop was that she hasn’t taught the Epsilon student about individual tax planning. She plan to teach them in this subject, but we, Delta student had did it in Taxation 2. Oh well, I think all of the Delta student who attends this class won’t drop… Hope she will treat us nicely in these 14 weeks…

Okie la, i should stop at here i guess… To be continue… Hehe…

Thursday, January 15, 2009

37TH. Old to New


This is the first post for me in year 2009. Nothing special to write about, but don’t know, I feel like write a English post today… At first, I want to write about my Christmas and New Year, but I’m yet to get the pictures… And I think it will be kind of dull if I put all the word only… So I plan to put some picture, with some simple wording, then it will become more interesting, that’s what I think. Hope to get the pictures soon.

For year 2008, there is not much for me to conclude actually. I was single for the whole year… Haha… So sad, nobody wants me… Well, it doesn’t matter for me anymore… I don’t care, anymore… I start to accept what my mother said, ‘if it is yours, it will be yours…’ So now I am not hunting anyone, but I am kinda waiting for the day it come, the day that my fate reaching in front of me, open the door to reach my heart. Other than that, I went to a lot of places; get to know a lot of new friends, start to think differently, start to act differently. I don’t dare to say I am a mature person, but at least, I am more mature as compare to the last time me.

Besides, some of my close friend have started a new relationship in year 2008, wish them all the best, and hopefully you all won’t forget about me. And I also hope their partners will treat them nicely. For those who still single and still searching for the Mr. and Ms Right, wish you will find them in year 2009.

For my study part, it was like a nightmare for me, for all the accounting student I suppose. Tax, Tax 2, Corporate Accounting, all these killing subject did really kill us. Although I manage to survive, I got a lot of injuries. Next trimester going be a hard trimester as well, but after that trimester, I will be going for my practical training… Still don’t know yet where to go, depend on which firm wants to accept me.

As usual, since it is a brand new year for all of us, everyone will have their own hopes or wishes which they are wishing for. Last year, I give all my three wishes for my friends, I keep none for myself, because I don’t have any wishes actually. This year, more likely the same, but I keep one for myself. Hehe… First, I wish all my family members get a healthy life, happy forever, and wish those who are still single manage to find their love in year 2009. Second, I wish those who said their life were always boring to have a interesting life in year 2009, so that they can become a better story teller. Hehe… And the last one is, I hope year 2009 will be a better year for me, in all area, at least better than year 2008.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

36TH. 恶魔交响曲

传说中,有十位天使,
他们,吃饱没事做,就去了地狱游玩...

地狱使者非常的欢迎他们,也把人类给他们的供品,给了天使...

给他们,用恶魔最常用的酒杯...
天使们,也同样地参与恶魔的交响仪式...

但他们不知道,他们已渐渐的踏入魔道...

喝完酒后,天使便开始他们的恶行...

有些就...(不用我多说,你们看了也明白了吧...)

也有的,开始有了一些幻觉...

之后,天使也变得堕落,也成为了,恶魔的一份子...

Friday, December 19, 2008

35TH. 圣诞

圣诞节快到了,但同时,我的FINAL EXAM也快到了。不过,以我历年来的经验,我的头脑一定会想,要快点复习,因为是连续三天都在考,但我知道,我的心,还是会跟往常一样,临时抱佛脚,会学王欣柔,‘难产’。哈哈。但是,管道它的,倒是才打算啦,不过我会开始读一点,因为我怕死,也不想被人家看死。

以往的圣诞前夕,我都过得比较‘清淡’。不时在家吃自己,就是在外面跟朋友吃个饭。因为我家的生意的关系,在大节日,我都得呆在家帮忙,就算有出,也实在忙完后才出。马六甲有个葡萄牙村,很多人都会在那里庆祝圣诞,在那里倒数。那里的家庭,都会把他们的家布置到很有圣诞节气氛,非常地热闹,但,我没去过。最近,我做了一个,我想也没想过的事,就是预先去到葡萄牙村,去感觉一下,圣诞节的气氛。带着圣诞帽,一户一户的去逛,看每一户家的布置。


My friend tolf me this tree cost RM 10 K


Ee Wui Chien a.k.a Siying


这样,一年就这样过去了,感觉,很不实际,很不真实。明年,我就要去TRAINING了。之前,我还在烦恼着,我到底要选择去那里TRAINING,因为我都在考虑着某些因素,是个已经困扰着我很久的因素。但最近,那个因素,已不再是我的因素了。我已不再去想,不再去问。现在我想到的,也只有我自己。很坚决地坐下决定后,现在要做的,就要朝这个目标前进。我不想被人看死,不想被人看不起,也不想输给别人。之前我很努力的压抑着我的好胜心,不给它爆发,因为我曾经就是因为好胜心强,做了很多错事。在跟她在一起时,我的感情事,完完全全的征服了我的好胜心,就算与她分手后,我的好胜心,还是同样的,被感情给压抑着。至到最近,我得到了一个解答,虽然不是我要的,不是我想的,但,还是替我解开了我心中的疑问,只是心有点痛而已。那个答案,我听了后,眼泪,没从眼睛,但我的心,却留下的第一滴泪。同时,它也演变成一把钥匙,一把,把感情给灭除及解放好胜心的钥匙。没有了感情,我的思想,我的行动,变得比较无情,变得比较不顾人情味。

接下来的日子,我会过得怎样,我不晓得。或许有一天,我会被我的好胜心给害惨,但,它是我现在唯一的推动力。在这里跟大家提前说,圣诞节快乐。

Monday, December 8, 2008

34TH. Je t'aime

Few days ago, I went to search online the various languages for ‘I Love You’. Then only I realize there are so many different languages in pronouncing ‘I Love You’. I never really go to count one by one, but I am sure that there are more than hundred. It list from countries with the alphabet A to countries with the alphabet Z. And now only I know, there are some countries that the name starts with Z. Hehe… I did read thru all of it, those that I familiar with are Mandarin, Cantonese, Malay, and English. I tried to pronounce some, but it sound pretty funny for me. I do not know whether I pronounce it correctly or not, I would not pronounce it to anyone or explain it to anyone, till I had figured what is the proper pronunciation. These are the few ‘famous’ examples:


Brazilian/Portuguese : Eu te amo

French : Je t'aime ("I love you"), Je t'adore ("I love you", stronger meaning between lovers)

German : Ich liebe dich

Italian : Ti amo (relationship/lover/spouse)

Japanes : Aishiteiru

Korean : Dangsineul saranghaeyo ("I love you, dear")

Latin : Te amo/Vos amo

Spanish : Te amo/Te quiero/Te adoro

Pretty interesting hah? Now I really feel like learning some foreign languages. And I had decided to learn French. Cause I want to talk with her in French in the future, make her surprise. And if things really gone worst, I would apply my job in France in future, just to shorten the distance.

I love you, and i love you all... Have a nice day...

Friday, December 5, 2008

33RD. 熟悉的温暖

我相信,这世上,没有一样事物是十全十美的。就算没有十全十美,没有照计划进行,我已很满足了。我自认,也自知,自己的野心,不小。虽然如此,你的出现,让我完完全全的忘掉了野心,满脑子都挤满了说不出话来的言语。

2008年12月3日,星期三,我很坚决地做出了一些决定,须要,给一定代价的决定。八点到九点,晚上,两个小时的考试,我乱写一团,很心急的做完那份考卷,然后去酒吧meet她。最厉害的是,第二天下午两点,我还有另一张paper要考。朋友都说我很拼,说我很强,但她们不知道,我下酒吧的原因,不是为了玩,而是为了见她。见到她后,我们都有说有笑,说的,都是一些问候的话题。在回家之前,我与她,走到外面,走走路,散散步。对着她,我就有说不停的话想跟她说,可能,是因为我太想她了吧。虽然就只有短短的十分钟,但,我的心,就有种说不出来的快乐,说不出来的喜悦。我敢大声的肯定,2008年12月3日,是我在2008年里,最开心的一天。虽然代价很高,但,是值得的。

2008年12月4日,星期四,早上起来,去上课,读书,然后考试。考试不是很会做,放了很多螃蟹下去(crab a lot)。 今天,她要带两五位朋友到我家吃饭,我比任何人都紧张。老早就叫我爸把食物给准备好,等到她与朋友到了,就能马上开动。她今天染了头发,是有点与众不同的青色。虽然她说她很不喜欢,然我觉得,还蛮适合她的。我妈终于见到她了。想一想,我妈也有一年多没见到她了。我妈都是时不时地提到她的名字,也弄到我有点吃醋,但我也知道,我妈,是很疼她的。在她来到我家之前,我把朋友的约会,完完全全的给postpone。一切,等她吃完了,要走了,才说。

阿网说,朋友在21岁生日时,为你许的愿,会实现的。我不知道这是否真实,但这一切,我已觉得很足够了。拖你的福,我的2008年,不会空白的储存在我的生命之旅里。我不知道你帮我许的愿,会不会实现。不管结果如何,我已经觉得很够了。

最上一次看到她,只说了几分钟的话,也没看清楚她的样子,只发现到,她已把头发,烫会直了(在上一次看到她时,她还是卷发的)。 我很喜欢她直发的样子,因为那才是我熟悉的她。真的很想跟她说:

“From the last time I saw you, you had change a lot. From the last time I know you, you had changed nothing at all. Welcome home… ”

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

32ND. 下雨天

下雨天,
对我来说,
是我睡觉得最佳时机,
但这是我的想法而已...
对有些人来说,
下雨天,
可以是不好的一天,
也可以是心痛的时刻...
相信很多人都试过,
在看到某些事物,
听到某些歌曲,
看到某些小动作,
就会立刻联想起某些人...
下雨天,
我想到的,
第一个想到的不是那个她,
而是另一个她...
当知道外面下着大雨时,
我的脑海里就会浮现出类似‘她还好吧?’的字眼...

非常了解,
经历一次又一次的失败的感觉...
这种感觉,
很不好受...
明明自觉,
这一次会成功,
但却爆冷失败,
也在身上增加了一道伤痕...
曾经,
有位友人跟我说:
“聪明的人,从哪里跌倒,就会从哪里爬起来...你是聪明人,绝对不会一跌不起的...”
这一句,
要带出的,
不是称赞我很聪明,
而是要我从新的,
从地底泥,
爬上来...
词句中的‘聪明’,
其实所要带出的是,
‘想一想,你这样做,值得吗?’

又要下雨了,
你,还好吗?

Monday, November 24, 2008

31ST. 宿命

总有一天,
记忆会变得渐淡...
她的声音,
跟她的举动,
我可能也会全部忘记...
就算如此,
我都会永远记得,
我曾经喜欢过,
一位叫REBEKAH的女生...

明明那种感觉是那么接近,
但就算生出了手还是无法掌握...
就算如此,
尽管无法掌握,
有些东西还是会长驻心里...
曾经在相同的时间,
仰望过一样的光景...
如果能够将它永记于心,
就算是相隔遥远,
也可以相信大家都在一起...

现在的我要不断地奔跑,
只要向着远方前进,
终有一天,
相望的目标,
也可以伸手就掌握得到...
两人的相遇并非偶然,
那时许久之前就许下的宿命…

Thursday, November 20, 2008

30TH. 救生圈

感觉,
有点像救生圈...

当每人需要它时,
它就被挂在墙上,
不会去想它,
不会去理它,
更不会去用它...

只有在有人溺水,
需要求救,
需要帮忙时,
人们才会想到救生圈,
但,
也有可能,
在它的一生中,
都没有被人赏识过的可能...

就算有人去想它,
理它,
用它,
又如何?
用完之后,
它,
还是会被挂在墙上,
日晒雨淋的,
度过它的一生...

为什么会这样?

我的一生,

就只能做个救生圈吗?

我很恨,

我很恨...

我恨我自己不在她的生活回忆里...

我更恨自己对此事变得如此无助...

我到底在想什么?

我不知道,

也不想知道...

我很想,
对一切,
不闻,
不问...

但,
我能吗?

我能做到如此的绝情吗?

我能够真正得恨下心来吗?

如果我能的话,
我还要那么心疼吗?

救生圈,
很可怜,
不是吗?

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

29TH. I am Suckz in Mandarin...

Honestly speaking, I want to blogging today, and I feel like writing a Mandarin blog today. But don’t know why, I spent about one hour sitting down in front of my laptop, I can’t come out a shit. This is the first time ever I feel like writing in English is thousand times easier than writing in Mandarin. May be I have got nothing to write in Mandarin, or may be is because my Mandarin is sucks… I told this to my friends most of the time, and I am not lying, I got 1 out of 100 during my form four Mandarin Midterm test. And I think I am the first Mandarin in my secondary school who ever did that.

Since ever I was in my primary school, my other languages are always better than my Mandarin, and yea, I know, Mandarin is my mother tongue. My Mandarin teacher always asks me why, but I just couldn’t give them a proper answer. And this is one of the reasons why my parent doesn’t want to send me to Pay Fong Secondary School. They think that I can’t survive in that school, so they sent me to Gajah Berang Secondary School, named GBS. Before I actually went to that school, my friends were freaking me up by telling me the ‘rumors’ of GBS. They said GBS also known as ‘Gila Babi School’, ‘Gengster Boy School’, and a lot some more. Whatever name that you can think of by using the alphabet ‘G.B.S’, it already in their mind, I mean, in the student mind.

My result at that time not very good, and I didn’t really score in my PMR, but I still took Mandarin subject. The reason why is one of my teacher always said, ‘can you call yourself a Mandarin if you never take Mandarin subject?’. Ok, it makes sense, and I think I got a ‘C’ for my Mandarin. During form four, Mandarin become an after school subject, it mean it is no longer in my regular morning timetable again. That was the beginning for my journey of termination Mandarin in my life. I register my name under the Mandarin class, but guess what, I always skip the class and went to play basketball. Yea, I never attend a single class of that Mandarin class, and my teacher get piss off of me. I never study and I went to take the midterm test. I thought it was easy and it will be something like form three Mandarin, but it was a different level for me, I can’t do at all. I managed to crap till two questions, and I submitted to the teacher. When I got back my paper, I got 1 mark. How I got this 1 mark? I did two questions, and one was correct, that was how I got my very 1 mark. I never tell my mom about this, and I just told her that I want to drop my Mandarin. Surprisingly, my mom said ‘anything la’ to me. That’s why I love my mom so much. So I didn’t register Mandarin for my SPM.

Oh my god… Why I can write so much in English but so little in Mandarin? Okie, no matter what, I am going to come out a Mandarin blog next time, I promise, I have to, to prove that I am a Chinese… Ok, that’s all. Bye…

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

28TH. 今日的我不是昔日的我

起先,我还在懊恼着,我该怎么做,但实际上,答案,已很明显的摆在眼前。这,还看不清吗?

之前,打算在假期的第二个星期,上一上KL。一是走马,二是看花,三是……..叙旧。跟她说了后,她在那刻的心情,我不知。或许是开心,也许是没有什么特别的感觉,毕竟,我已不是昔日的余维权了,也失去了阅读她的思想与心情的能力。

星期六,如能照原订计划的话,我应该会跟朋友们,一同上KL,去逛街。因某些原因,我们当日去与归。刚刚,当我正在驾着车,时间还早,想找人去喝茶。当时我想到一位朋友,就立刻打个电话给他。我电话的八个速键,都放了我最常拨的号码。潜意识里,那位朋友的电话号码我设定在7字键,很自然的,我按了我电话的7字键,然后一面驾驶,一面等待电话接通。当电话接通时,出声的,既然是女子声,而且还是我非常熟悉的声音。是她,我既然意外的,拨了电话给她。当我一回神时,我才想起,早前我已把她的电话号码更新设定在7字键。谈了一会儿,就跟她说起,我没办法在KL遇她的,原因,是朋友不想过夜。突然间,她说她哪里有地方可以给我们睡,而且不用钱。这,的确是个很大的诱惑,虽然我意不在钱。跟朋友说了之后,她们还是决定不要过夜。她们还说,如果我想过夜的话,就过夜吧。听了之后,我的心,在犹豫。也许,上天要我别想太多,脑海里隐隐约约的出现了个答案。我,还在执著什么呢?

我与她分手的时候,是在一年前的八月五日。一直深信,如果月老能将我与她的红线再次连接的话,必定是在八月五日。今年的八月五日,没有任何的事发生,失望,失望。那时之后,我就自知想太多。有天,她跟我谈到,她母亲要她回来马六甲帮忙她。我听了,很开心,很开心。她说,如果真的回来帮忙的话,会在明年的八月回来。八月,这是巧合吗?

我已不是昔日的我,已不是昔日的…………余维权。

Thursday, October 23, 2008

27TH. Timez to take a REST

This is my first blog, after my torturing two weeks exam. This is also my first English blog, after so many Chinese blog which I had post. Just now, before I come out from my house, I just had the feeling to write a blog, an English blog. Today is Wednesday, going to be Thursday soon. I spent my whole day at home (before I came out), watching a Hong Kong drama. Finally, I had the mood to blogging. Or should I said, I finally have the time to sit down alone and blogging.

Saturday was my last paper. After that paper, I drive straight to cut my hair, because my parent keeps on complaining that my hair was very long. Took about 45 minutes, then I went to Jusco to buy two bottles of red wine, as birthday present to two friend of mine. Thanks to an auntie who works there, she recommends me two good wines and I think it suit perfectly for them. Minutes after, I meet up with Nicole and had lunch together at Shackey Pizza. Supposing we wanted to eat sushi, but Sushi King was kind of full, so switch to pizza. Due to over ordered, we can’t finished the pizza but we spent about 45 minutes to enjoy our food as well as our life. After lunch, I rushed back home, to clean up my room. The reason I was so eager to clean up my room is because Yin, King, and San was on their way back to Melaka, and three of them, plus another 4 friends of mine, were going to stay at house. Although it was kind of pack, but we manage to sleep well in my tiny room. That day we had our dinner at my father restaurants. Hope all of them like the foods that I ordered for them. We went to Jonker Street. As usual, many people shopped at there, thus, made the environment become kind of hot. After awhile, we went to Pure Bar. That’s was a bad idea to go to Pure Bar at that day. It was so pack for us to find a place to stand and also air to breathe. We didn’t spend long there; we went for supper and then went to my house to rest.

Sunday, the first thing we went for was to eat Bak Kut Teh. It had been awhile for all of us to sit down and eat Bak Kut Teh together. After the delicious branch, we went to Dataran Pahlawan for a walk. Don’t know how long it took, we went to eat again. We split into two, Chui Ying and Hui Ying went to eat ice, and other (Me, King, San, Agnes, Janet, Agnes, Yin) went to Nadeje to eat layer cakes. I don’t know what was happening to Chui Ying and Hui Ying there, but the first thing that we did when we went into that shop was, took out the camera and shot. I think the workers there also ‘PENENG’ when he saw us. 5pm, Lee Ying came to join us and went to GO GO KTV to sing together. We had our wonder moment before we went to McQuek to have dinner. McQuek is a place which sell ‘Satay Celup’. I know this place very well. The last time I came here was a year ago, with a girl. I took my usual favorite foods, like ‘Tau Ki’, bird egg, cheese sausage, and ordered watermelon juice, the juice that I will always order when I am here. But I can’t ever see again an orange juice with salt here again. We went home after that, took a short rest, bath and come out again drink tea with Sam.

Monday, supposing we had to wake up early and eat ‘Dim Sum’, well, all of us woke up late and ended up ate chicken rice ball in Jonker Street. After eating ice, King, San and Yin went back to Cyber. I went back to sleep. Can’t remembered how long I slept, I went to had dinner with Nicole afterward. I helped her to mark her student exam paper in Xuan Café. Then I meet up with Xiao Wen at pool center.

Tuesday, I play mahjong at Xiao Wen’s house; I lost about 2 bugs in the game. When I reached home after the game, I helped in my father restaurant awhile, then went out to drink tea with Chui Ying, Xin Rou, Shaun and Glen in Old Town. We were crapping at there and Nicole came and joined us together with Chris.

Wednesday, means today, I did nothing except watching drama at home, and wrote this blog at Bonami Café. Hehe… Anyway, wish all my friend (who is studying in MMU), happy holiday and have a nice day.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

26TH. 月老的愚弄

真是笑话。
前阵子我还跟身边的朋友说,
最近好多人开始恋爱了,
开始拍拖了。
话说没完,
短短的一个月内,
就听到身边的朋友一个个的说:“我跟他/她分手了。”
就像我那班姐妹常说的,
‘真的是表演咯’。

当一个朋友正式拍拖时,
他们的祝福,
就会转移到别人身上,
以前我不信,
但现在我信。
曾经,
我还一直抱怨,
为什么拍拖都没有我的份。
但现在我知道了,
是因为,
我的爱情,
根本没有被考验的价值。

人们说,
火凤凰之所以会不死,
是因为他经常再生。
在他即将结束生命时,
会采集芳香植物的树枝、
香草筑成一个巢,
然后点火自焚,
在熊熊火焰中,
一只幼小的火凤凰就诞生了。
一个生命的结束,
就会带来另一个生命的开始。
同样的,
当一段爱情开始了之后,
就可能会面临失恋打击。

在这两个星期内,
我就收到有四位朋友,
刚刚失恋,
就有如时尚潮流一样,
一个接一个。
或许,
这就是平衡。
一光一暗,
一正一邪,
一好一坏,
一阴一阳。
在月老撮合了一对恋人是,
他就得拆散另一对恋人。
月老啊月老,
你到底要几时才会把您有限的祝福,
变成无限呢?

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

25TH. 被遗忘的曾经

有好多好多事情,
我都把它给遗忘了。
正确来说,
是记忆越来越模糊,
越来越混乱,
越来越分不清楚哪个是有发生过,
哪个没有。
曾经,
她是我的一切。
曾经,
她是我的全部。
曾经,
她是我的一生。
但现在,
我好像,
把那‘曾经’,
给遗忘了。
渐渐发觉,
我在生活中,
不再用‘曾经’这个词了。
可能,
‘曾经’这个词,
代表的,
就是过去,
而我已离过去,
越来越远。
现在的我,
问过我自己,
如果我能回到过去,
我,
会回吗?
我犹豫,
非常。
犹豫着什么?
不晓、不知、不明。

你们常说,
我变了。
我其实很想跟你们说,
我真的不知我哪里变了。
虽然你们说,
这是好的变化,
但我真的很怕。
我怕我再也看不到我的过去,
因为另一个我,
在我不察觉的情况下,
慢慢的往没有光芒或黑暗的前往奔驰。
我怕我会真正的,
遗忘了我所有的曾经。
我知道过去,
就像是几百公斤的铁球一样,
妨碍我们前进。
想无忧无虑的往前的话,
就得摆脱那粒铁球。
我想往前跑,
但我不想丢掉那粒铁球,
因为,
我还是很珍惜那粒铁球,
不管它有多重,
有多碍眼,
有多麻烦。

我回头向后看,看不到,我全部的过去,
只看到,模糊不解,的一些画面;
我抬头往前看,看不到,我一丝的未来,
只想知,过去的画,还会剩多少。
发觉,
还是盖上眼睛,
不看,
最好。

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

24TH. 您

在等什么?
不知道。

一度,
觉得,
看到了光线,
有了希望,
但实际上,
只是海市蜃楼罢了。

一次又一次的,
您让我觉得,
我有了希望,
看到了,
以前未来的那一幅全家福,
但再次又再次的,
得到的,
也只有失望。

我比任何人都想念您,可惜,您不知。
我比任何人都关心您,可惜,您不知。
我比任何人都在乎您,可惜,您不知。

您知道的,就是我不能陪在您的身边。
您知道的,就是我不能给您支持拥抱。
您知道的,就是我不能给您我的手心。

我想要知道,前方的路到底有几黑暗。
我想要知道,路的尽头会不会看到你。
我想要知道,在教堂里有没有等到你。

没了您,
我还是活着了,
只是,
没了一些意义,
没了一些回忆,
没了一些甜蜜,
没了一些傻笑,
没了一些,
您的影子。

我似乎已忘了,
您身上散发出来的婴儿味,
您那可以溶化一切的体温,
及您那刺耳的声音。

曾经说过,
我不喜欢您常用的葡萄香护唇膏,
我讨厌,
讨厌极了,
但现在,
我既然会想念我讨厌的东西。

想念,
却得不回的人、事、物。

Monday, August 4, 2008

23RD. 空了一年的窗

星期五时,
我的部落多了两位访客,
真的很开心...
相信很多部落客都会有同样的心情...
当有人到我们的部落坐坐时,
很自然的,
就会很高兴...
当部落客,
也当了一年多...
还记得,
当我开了friendster的部落格时,
只是贪新鲜,
没事干...
写的,
都是有关我对爱情的观念与看法...
写了三篇后,
就把那个部落给荒废了一段时间...
直到与前女友分手,
情绪跌到了谷底,
没地方发泄,
我的部落,
就成为我发泄的好地方...

写着写着,
从三个话题,
写到现在的五十多个,
部落,
从一个变成两三个...
我,
真的很喜欢当个部落客,
也很喜欢到别人的部落去坐坐...
其实我的班有很多部落客,
但我知道的,
就只有一小部分而已...
最熟最常上的,
就是阿网的部落,
其他人的都很少上...
但我也会偶尔去坐坐,
只是没留言罢了...
心想,
如果没有了部落格这个玩儿,
我就没地方发泄我心情,
我想到时候我会疯掉吧...

身边的朋友,
几乎全部都是经验丰富的部落客...
阿网,Chui Ying,Hooi Yin, Yie Lin, 咏颐,Alex,Michel,Nycol,
等等,
都各有各的心情,
各有各的精彩...
部落格,
已变成我生命中的一部分,
一个无法缺少的一样东西...

星期五跟那三个家伙来了个网上会议,
拿了阿网来开刀...
阿网呢,
好事近了...
嘻嘻...
当目标转移我时,
咳,
还惨过满清十大酷刑...
他们说,
依我过往的记录来看,
我是没有可能有一年那么长的空窗起的...
不瞒你们说,
我自己的吓了一跳...
最好笑的事,
阿网竟然叫我快点去找个女朋友,
怕我寂寞喔...
放心,
我还死不了...
阿网,
你以为女朋友说找就马上友啊?
要看缘分跟feeling的嘛...
再说,
我又不是很desperate啊...
慢慢来啦,
我还年轻...
嘻嘻...
等我真的有了新的恋情时,
一定会通知你们三个八卦精的...
嘻嘻...
就这样,
拜拜...

Monday, July 28, 2008

22ND. 星期...六

2008年7月26日,
星期六...
早上起床,
找一找电话,
看了时钟,
已是早上十一点了...
心想,
已经有好几个星期六,
都没有如此早起过了...
想躺回去,
再睡一睡,
但,
周公不知跑到地球的哪一端去了,
我睡不着了...
起来,
刷个牙,
洗个脸,
看一看报纸,
时间,
也才到十一点半罢了...
时间,
过得真慢...
坐在客厅,
收拿遥控器,
按来按去,
都没有能吸引我的节目...
就这样,
按来按去,
我按到的下午一点,
然后听到老妈子叫我下楼吃饭...
一下到楼下,
看到了辣椒鱼,
然后看到老爸老妈用手吃饭,
我也高兴的一起用手吃饭...
吃饱了,
我,
还是没事干...
就打开电脑,
写下了这篇部落...

各位朋友,
真的很对不起,
答应过你们要写英文部落的,
但还没有找到那个feel,
然后也没有很好的题材可写,
所以就稍微忍耐忍耐吧...

最近,
有位网友,
她,
与她的好朋友,
因为某些原因,
而吵架了...
我不知道详情,
但从她的部落格里看得出,
她很伤心,
很懊恼...
我,
在她的部落留了言,
劝她要开心点,
不要闷闷不乐...
她回我说,
她是选择开心过活的,
但,
在开心底下,
却存在了不开心...
简单的说,
她为了她与好友的那件事,
而无法开心起来...
这种心情,
我了解...
人,
总是说时容易,
做时难...
现在会劝身边的朋友不要不开心,
不要闷闷不乐,
说一些不开心也是解决不了问题的话...
但如果事情是发生在我身上的话,
我想,
要我不要闷闷不乐都难...
‘开心’,
是个很奇妙的感觉,
也是个很特别的字眼...
‘开心’,
解的,
就是打从心里的高兴、欢笑,
把心给解放出来,
让她奔跑,
让她呐喊...
但,
如果在‘开心’前面加了个‘不’,
整个的意识,
就不同了...
‘不开心’,
解的,
就是不要把心给解放出来,
把她,
关在门内,
也就是相同‘闷’的意识...
我一直认为,
这世界上,
不公平的事情,
多如繁星...
要把这世界给变得公平公正,
比找上帝还难...
举个例子,
在‘开心’前面加了个‘不’,
整个的含义就有如‘伤心’...
但想一想,
如果再‘伤心’前面加了个‘不’,
意识,
会是‘开心’吗?
我不知道其她人,
对我来说,
如果我对别人说我不开心,
意识就是说我在伤心;
如果我对别人说我不伤心时,
你们认为,
其她人会联想到我是在开心着的吗?
答案是不会...
人们顶多认为你不伤心而已,
绝不会认为你在开心着...
但不管如何,
我还是希望我那位网友,
会开心的过活,
去挽救这段友情...

写着写着,
已到了下午三点半了...
今天的星期六,
会怎么过呢?

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

21ST. 王国

真是可笑,
可笑...
一个,
地位可说是数一数二的王国,
因为地位的争执,
权力的争霸,
混乱的关系,
而导致前所未有的危机...
一开始得到王位的他,
得到了两位亲王的协助,
照道理来说,
应该会很顺利才对...
想不到,
权力,
还是洗去了他的心,
他的脑...
他,
竟然要把整个朝廷,
都归他所管,
朝廷命官都由他来选...
两位亲王所能做的,
就是提名跟任选九品芝麻官...
身为帝王的他,
竟然说了如此难堪的一句话,
那便是:
“我,为王,任选朝廷命官,不用你们两位亲王的高见,也不需两位亲王的忠言...”
此外,
他还违反了興五位大师所许下的诺言,
想先斩后奏,
卫免,
太放肆了吧...

正在出家修行的两位太上王,
这,
就是你们俩,
精心策划的王朝吗?
想当年,
你们以卑鄙的手段而换来现任王帝的王位,
到后来,
闹出的,
既然是一个遗臭万年的笑话...
或许,
我的退位,
也打乱了你们的如意算盘吧...
当年,
我们三人的争吵,
厮杀,
我以为,
会在当年的朝廷大会里结束...
虽然输得心不甘,
情不愿,
至少下一代可以有新的开始,
好的冲刺...
想不到的是,
历年来的争吵与厮杀,
今年竟然没被当成教训,
反而,
在此的,
跟着历史的脚步,
创造最无情的厮杀...
得到了王位,
不代表你就能唯我独尊,
为所欲为...

亚瑟王,
虽然有石中剑的威力,
没有魔法师梅林,
以及七位骑士的帮助下,
是不会成为英格兰之王的...

现任帝王,
如果你再不改的话,
就算你能无视两位亲王及五位大师的存在,
不久的将来,
你所选的朝廷命官,
也会有叛变你的一天...
到时,
天地会就会被缔造出来,
你所计划的方案,
也会被亲王、
天地会、
人民给推翻...
不要有骑士王亚瑟不做,
反做慈禧太后...

你,
好自为之...

Sunday, July 20, 2008

20TH. 逃

2008年7月20日
刚刚到家,
头是痛的咯...
肚子也不是很舒服...
刚刚喝多了,
有点醉醉的...
今天,
心情不是很好...
也不知道为什么,
就有这样的感觉...
之前还说,
女人超情绪化的,
想不到,
男人也有情绪化的时候...
也许,
男人比女人更会常常情绪化...
今天,
我选者了醉...
因为,
醉,
能让我顿时忘记一切,
忘记所有烦恼...
但我知道,
睡醒后,
我,
还是得面对人生...
也许,
我在逃避一些事情...
可能,
我在逃避的,
是我自己的人生...
我朋友说,
很难相信,
我既然有了一年的空窗期...
老实说,
我自己也想不到...
离上一次的感情,
也有一年了...
有位友人一直认为我放不下,
其实,
我早已放下一切了,
只是,
没人相信而已...
一年的空窗期,
是多么的难过...
当一个人呆在房间里时,
难免会想太多...
在想,
是不是以前太好玩了,
所以才造成现在的下场...
总有一天,
记忆会变得渐淡...
她的声音,
跟她的举动,
我可能也会全部忘记...
就算如此,
我都会永远记得,
我曾经喜欢过,
那位女生...
两人的相遇并非偶然,
那是许久之前就许下的宿命,
但宿命也有结束的一刻,
到时剩下的,
也就只有回忆...
空窗期,
也许会延续到两年三年也不一定...
是我自己没有去争取,
还是我选择性放弃呢?
就算有了心意的对象,
也不敢勇敢地去爱...
很多人说,
幸福要自己去争取的...
但没有月老的祝福,
争取到了,
还是会有分开的一天...
真的不知道月老要的是什么,
渐渐的,
我也不晓得自己要的是什么...
没有了爱情,
自少还有友情...
但朋友也有他们自己的感情生活,
不想因为自己的自私,
而夺取别人与伴侣相处的时间...
到最后,
剩下的,
也只有面对着镜子的自己...
其实,
我不喜欢一个人自己照镜子...
因为看到了镜子里面的我,
一个人,
是多么的孤单,
是多么的可怜...
有位友人,
她,
写了个部落...
在他的部落里,
写的,
是她对之前的感情的怨恨...
镜子,
就像是分离两者的中间线...
爱得越深,
恨得越深...
爱情,
也就是憎恨的倒影...
有爱,
就有恨...
有天使的出现,
就有恶魔的存在...
有时候,
真的很想选择不一样的道路...
走一些,
不可能的路...
虽然结果不会有预期的那么好,
但自少,
生活会多出几分惊喜也说不定...
现在,
我要不断的奔跑...
只要向着远方前进,
总有一天,
想望的目标,
也可以伸手掌握得到...
在那之前,
我会选择一直得醉下去...
这,
就是去我现在的人生...

19TH. 终于过了

2008年7月17日
终于过了...
这个星期的presentation终于过了...
在踏入这个星期前,
我还在埋怨着,
为什么这个星期有那么多presentation...
其实也不多啦,
两个而已...
Forensic Accounting还好,
但Tax就有点怕怕...
一是题目不知道会不会做,
二是我的讲师很严...
上她的课,
就好像上战场一样...
你最好是多穿几件避弹衣,
手上多拿几件武器,
总之是‘弹’的就拿就对了...
如果不准备好就立刻上战场的话,
下场就有如在廁所里面打灯,
找屎(找死)...
幸好,
今天穿的避弹衣也不少,
侥幸的,
能从战场里,
活生生走出来...
星期二打的,
是团体战,
刚刚打的,
是个人战...
其实,
我对present是蛮有自信的...
但可能是太久没有present了,
刚刚present时不太自然…
再这样下去的话,
迟早会死到很惨,
所以得加倍加倍加倍努力,
加强我的presentation skill才行...
今天上完课后,
Isabel就跟我说,
他从第一个Tax课到现在,
她都不明在教什么...
她还说,
midterm铁定会死到很惨...
这……
我也知道,
也有同感...
因为我也不是很明白...
唯一明白的就只有Forensic Accounting...
是好笑的咯,
当初还在犹豫要不要拿这一科,
想不到,
这一刻竟然是我上到最明,
最没有雾水的一科...

Forensic Accounting,上到最好玩的一科...
Corporate Accounting,讲师教到很好,不过回家要复习复习...
Human Resource Management, 多希望讲师讲的是英文...
Accounting Information System II, 讲师很会吃蛇咯,不过我们也很喜欢卖蛇给她的咯...
Advance Auditng, 看了他一个学期,现在还是看回他,他还是一样喜欢讲冷笑话...
Tax II,讲师很好,但太严了,我们会怕的...

你们说,
做学生是不是很难?

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

18TH. 乱

昨天,
照平常星期一的时间表的话,
今天是要去炫看歌唱比赛的...
原本是没有心情去看的,
但想到春玲会唱,
所以到最后还是去了,
刚刚好赶上他们的PK赛...
刚听完春令唱那首‘爱我的资格后’,
哇,
是超好听,
超棒的,
真的是好听到我无法形容...

之后就跟咏颐他们去KTV,
它们常他们的歌,
我喝我的酒...
在那里,
我遇见了EVELYN跟SHARON...
真的是很巧...
心情一路都很好,
直到他们点唱那首‘安静’时,
我情绪就来了...
可能是因为太久没听这首歌了吧…
当我看到这首歌的MV时,
很自然的,
我想到了REBEKAH,
我的前女友...
她很喜欢这首歌,
以前她常常哼在嘴里...
上两个星期,
跟她见了面...
想一想,
那可是我跟她分手后,
第二次见面...
第一次是在KL,
当时她还弄了一头卷发,
差一点就认不出是她了...
第二次见面,
他把卷发给拉直了,
就跟以往的她一样...
其实我还蛮高兴的,
因为感觉上,
我见回一位我熟悉的朋友,
熟悉的家人...

哈哈...
婷,
看到这篇BLOG有你的名字时,
但又看不明,
是不是很气了?
嘻嘻...
去找你那位朋友翻译给你听吧...
你别把你的头发弄回卷的了,
直发比较适合你,
真的...
嘻嘻...
希望下次我们见面时,
我还是可以见到我熟悉的你...

今天是星期二,
因该是跟咏颐一起去游泳的...
但天气不是很好,
很想要下雨酱...
如果下雨的话,
我们游泳的计划又要泡汤了...
最近,
生活被人给弄乱了...
也不知道为什么...
不管怎样,
从现在起,
我要把我的生活给带回正常的轨道...
不能再这样乱下去...

哇,
我看,
这片是我有史以来写到最乱的一篇,
连我自己都不知道我自己在写什么,
就像有位同学常常说的,
没有重点...
算了...
关到他,
反正没有这样写过...

就这样,
拜拜...
(因为不知道要怎样结束这篇垃圾,所以就借用了蜡笔小新的名言)

Sunday, July 13, 2008

17TH. 影子

那是一场梦吗?
很奇妙的,
我看到她的影子...
我曾经说过,
她很像她,
也只是第一眼的感觉而已...
但我发现,
我竟然在她身上看到了她的影子...
当时,
我还没察觉到,
今天醒来后,
想一想,
有许多小动作,
她,
真的很像她...
曾有一刻,
我想,
应该是当时我不是很清醒,
所以出现这样的错觉...
但仔细想想,
或许,
那不是错觉...
不管是不是错觉都好,
可以肯定的是,
她们俩,
不是同一个人...
我看,
如果她知道这件事情之后,
她一定会笑着说,
一定是我太想那个她了,
所以才会出现这样的想法...


有些事情,
真的很奇妙...
在不同的时间,
不同的地点,
不同的事物,
领悟出一些答案,
一些画面,
一些回忆...
感觉就像,
上天正在传着讯息给我们...
上天要传的讯息,
只有一个,
但我们收到的讯息,
可以是一个,
也可以是很多个...
里面,
或许,
有对的,
也有错的...
收到了天传而来的讯息后,
身为凡人的我们,
就会分析,
再分析,
然后领悟...


影子,
有光的地方,
就有它...
把光给弃除了,
影子,
会一起消失,
而我们的视线,
也会消失...
只有在伸手不见五指的黑暗里,
我们才看不见影子,
也什么都看不见...
当我们有了光,
我们就能看见四周围的一切,
也包括影子...
所以,
不管我们看着什么事物,
都会看到影子...


有人说,
影子,
是神的使者,
也是神的信差...
他每一份,
每一秒,
都在观察着我们,
观察着我们的一举一动...
当神有讯息要传达给我们时,
影子就会把讯息,
影射在某些事物,
来转达给我们...

16TH. 该死的PLAYER

昨晚,
发生了许多事情,
有开心的,
也有不开心的...
开心的是,
跟原定朋友一起出去玩,
还看到很多很多的老朋友...
不开心的事,
昨晚有班PLAYER在找吃...
三个里面,
其中两个我都认得...
原本他们出来找吃,
不管我的事,
我也懒得理...
但他们其中一位,
犯了一个大错...
那位PLAYER,
三个之中,
我最认得的就是他,
因为他是我朋友兼同学的前男友...
他啊,
我看,
也该为他所犯的错儿负责了吧...
可惜的是,
我那般女子朋友,
找他一整晚,
都找不到...
他,
最好是不要在那里混了,
要不然,
我想,
他的后果一定会很难堪...
其实我有点犹豫着,
该不该告诉那般女子朋友有关那位PLAYER的事情呢?
我是不认识他,
但要找他的资料,
以及他的人,
不难...
我,
应该告诉他们吗?
说老实话,
我也挺想给他一个教训的,
让他下次别乱乱出来找吃,
但,
这样做的话,
他......
咳,
真烦...
算了,
我决定了,
就由咏颐来决定吧,
毕竟,
那位女子是她表妹...

Thursday, July 10, 2008

15TH. 雨天(合作篇)

一直以来,
我都很喜欢雨天…
冷冷的…
懒懒的…….
望着窗外的感觉…
思绪得到前所未有的…
放松与…
……沉淀…….

路上的车辆...街道上的行人
脚步都放缓了…
大多数人都不怎么喜欢雨天…
而我呢??
嗯……
还不错啦~!^^
起码
雨天没有大大的太阳
把我当烧猪来烤...
虽然我还蛮喜欢‘猪’的啦~!呵….
但今天
我可爱的雨天
竟然把我的计划给破坏了...
%……¥%#¥#—#^&&*(~!!!!!!!!!! ( 乱骂中~!)
原先答应了咏颐去游泳
但我老妈子说刚下完雨游什么泳啦?!
当心被雷劈...
哇靠~~!!!
讲到几夸张一下的叻…..
但我还是被老妈子讲到有点gia gia…
怕死~~!!
当我跟咏颐说给雷劈的事情时
她还是很勇敢地要去游泳,
酱就没有啦~!…
有谁不怕被雷劈啊?
看来
游泳的计划要等到下个星期了
显掉…
游泳没有了
干泳又没人jio
就只好乖乖呆在家帮忙..
到了九点多跑来魔力捧Reico场…
还以为可以看到她的‘雷门哥哥’
现场有个人
…..很像是他,
但又不敢肯定...
等那个家伙唱完歌下来后
要好好得审问她噜~!
...哈哈...
谁知道那位‘雷门哥哥’可能就是我们老妹的另一个春天呢?!
...扑哧~~!!...
老妹啊….老妹
不管怎样,
他都会好过老Q讲的那个功夫熊猫啦...
哈哈...
现在真的几矛盾一下的咯
星期六又想去拿夏日八度的入场卷
但又想跟咏颐去KL…
(来了咯….老师又在纠正我了咯….她说是她带我去,不是跟她去)
...怎么办呢?
嗯…..
可能叫Wendy去帮我拿票咯…
就这样,
我又过了无聊的一天...
雨天啊…..雨天
求求你下个星期二不要来
回一回娘家去...
这样的话,我就能游泳了…

我的忠实读者,看完以上的文章,有什么感想呢?是不是没有了我以往所写部落格的‘死大楼’(style)叻?原因很简单,因为我这篇文章,是被小学的华语老师,咏颐给改过的…这也是头一次,跟这位小学老师,一起‘合作’写出来的文章。不妨跟你们说,当我再写着下面这篇时,她还一直要改,幸好,被我阻止了…不然的话,我是不懂啦…

Monday, July 7, 2008

14TH. 路边

我想,
连我自己都没想过,
会在这个地点,
这种情况下,
写部落格...
而且,
还有一个傻婆在我身边睡着觉...
四周围,
都是鸟叫声...
相信我,
我不是特地来这里听鸟叫声的...
只是刚跟朋友和完茶,
有还不想回家,
然后那位傻婆就给我这个IDEA,
在路边写BLOG...
老实说,
我现在的心情是几DOWN一下的咯...
我既然堕落到在路边,
妈,
我不想的...
嘻嘻...
这一次,
是我第二次跟这个傻婆在路边废...
不过这一次还好,
地点还蛮有FEEL的...
一想回第一次的地点,
真的一点FEEL都没有咯...
不过还有,
有啤酒的陪伴,
感觉,
还可以啦...


第一次是在熊山的一个路边,这一次是在红屋...


现在的她,
在半睡半醒,
还一边帮我打蚊子,
没办法,
车上蚊子是多了点...
十二点半了,
路边真的一个人都没有...
其实还蛮想下去走走的,
但因为太迟了,
然后我身边的这个傻婆太会吸引苍蝇了,
所以就没办法咯...
哈哈...
讲到她很像大便酱,
别怀疑,
我就是这个意识...
路边,
其实还蛮不错的...
以前,
我都只会呆在桥底,
都没去别的地方看看...
其实其他地方,
都有它好的一面,
看我们怎样去看,
怎样去想而已...
一个平平无奇的东西,
也有它独特的一面...
今天,
收在我电脑里的一个小秘密,
终于,
每一个人给挖掘的...
其实也没什么,
只是,
一路以来都认为不会有人看的东西,
她,
既然看了...
感觉,
也没怎样...
以前一直和会想,
如果那个她看了,
她会有什么感觉,
而我又会有什么感觉...
现在,
我知道了一半的答案,
另一半,
我想,
是不会有机会知道了...
毕竟,
过去,
就是过去...
人是无法回到过去的,
人只能回想过去,
回想过去的喜怒哀乐,
回想过去的点点滴滴...
真的真的得谢谢这位傻婆...
如果不是她,
我想,
我连一半的答案都不知道...
时空,
原本就不应该被扰乱的...
"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever."
明天,
会是怎样的一天呢?
我不知道...
我只知道,
明天的我,
不会在路边...
哈哈...